Been Working.

I know. My blog idea has never been a success. I always forget to write. I think half of my brain is too lazy to even think of what to write. Blogging was supposed to help me get better in writing!

So, from next Monday (being 5% OCD, I like to start something new on Mondays), I'll try to write at least twice a month. I've been working for 8 months and learned a lot.

I'd like to share those experiences; the parents I've met, the a-holes I've taught, controlling my temper, how sweet some people can be, and of course, office politics.

Being a semi adult can be a bore. My life is so structured, so dry, so blah. I want to be a teenager again! Where I can go out as I please, sleep all day, go for dates, hang out with friends, gossip...

But I love teaching. It makes me want to be better. Know more. Give more. I just need to start doing it. Have a commitment for action.

I can. And I will!

Starting from next week, of course.

Defense Mechanism

It means when you do certain things to cope with reality to maintain self-image. At least that's what Google said. I'd like to share an experience of a rather odd defense mechanism.


Last week after work, a certain someone and I went for an ice-cream treat. Later on we drove aimlessly just because and ended up in a funfair. It was drizzling and the place looked dead despite the colourful lights. Only a few souls were seen. I looked at him shyly. He smiled and took out few cash and parked the car :D




We won prizes which was not worth the money spent, screamed when the balls did not match the colour picked, watched excited kids getting all big-eyed; and then I saw it.

A mini ferris wheel. You know how in movies, all the best moments happen in ferris wheels? I wanted that.

Once we came near, I realized how ancient this thing was. The capsule looked more like a cage with scraped paint. The electric motor had to be warmed-up first. When it started to rotate, there was a clangor of metal chains.

I was so excited. We were reenacting a scene from old movies. How sweet.

Into the capsule we sat and with some pulls from the metal chains, up we went in a rotating manner. The scene was running through my mind and I can't wait to experience it first hand!

Then I heard soft continuous laughter. My certain someone was laughing softly and continuously without any reason. A bit disappointed with my failed reenact, I asked,

'Why are you laughing?'
*soft chuckle* Scared.
'What do you mean, scared?'

'Scared..takut..tahu takut?' *laughs*

'Of what?'

'The ferris wheel.' *laughs some more*

'Why didn't you tell me?'

*laughs* I feel like we're in that stupid movie, Final Destination'

-metal chain sound getting louder-

*MORE laughs**buries face in hands*

I looked at him. I've never seen anyone happier out of fear and my lips curved into a slow smile. The ferris wheel made abrupt stops (maybe cos the small motor wasn't strong enough) and he laughed even harder. I had to join laughing with him.

For the whole three minutes, everytime the capsule swings or the metal chain made clunking noise or even when the ferris wheel stopped rotating and shook from the strong wind, we laughed till I got stomach cramps. I felt happy.

My certain someone was so stupid but I was happy laughing at him and us. Then it hit me, how cool it was that you can still laugh even when you're feeling scared. It just totally changes the mood. I wish I could kill cocroaches while laughing.

Next time, I'll try laughing everytime I feel scared to go out of my comfort zone. He finished the ferris wheel ride and got a stomach exercise. Hopefully when I laugh, I get through my fears too.

What do you want to do when you're scared?

Funnay.

Found some hilarious pictures at DamnLOL.com. There were so many but these are some of my favourites



Freedom!

I got ya!

brown egg: Great.

You think the cat died or slept?

This car definitely had fun last night :D

It's best to start fresh.

I'm the kind of person who have simple dreams. It might make me look as though I am a simple person but I'd like to think that I'm content. Besides, what you want and what you need are two very different things.


I want to have a house filled with cheerful and cluttered memories.



Learn to be creative.



Be beautiful from the inside.



Hope I always see the light when it gets dark.



and learn to love and be loved.



Here's to a better future :)